big girl woes

so im feeling like there are no cute affordable inspiring clothes left in my size. and no i dont want to "make it work". honestly some of these big chicks walking around with clothes that don't fit them. yes i said it... that does not fit you.  Just because your "girls" are at attention doesn't mean that's your bra size.  If they are peeking out under the bra, guess what? it's too small! And no I dont think it's cute for big chicks to walk around wearing tunics as dresses. Or being able to see your crotch in leggings. But hey do what you want 'cause you are fierce. *side eye* and no i wont buy new clothes to wear once then later sell just to impress you. big girl gear isn't cheap and my bank isnt bottom-less.

rant over.

i want to change up my style and finding the right pieces is frustrating.  while on my health journey i no longer wish to subconsciously just look like whatever in the meantime.  not to mention i haven't worn a dress all winter because i can't seem to find tights/stockings that can fit me.  ive traded out a few jeans. i now like straight leg rather than bootcut on me.  still searching for my signature wig (yeah i know that's not clothes but it goes with the ensemble).  and i find that flats with a low wedge are most comfortable.  aside from those minor details...yeah i dont know.  still waiting on my cuz to get me my blank canvas so i can work on my fashion collage.  once i get that together (however long it takes) perhaps the pieces will magically come into my life. hahaha.

A tangled state of affairs

I have alot to talk about but for right now I think I'll discuss hair. Nothing has been too different from my routine but I have sampled a few products. First was the pantene medium thick frizzy to smooth. That did everything it said it would. I mean except actually cleanse my hair LOL.  My hair was pretty but my scalp didn't like it. 

The other product which I used today is Head & Shoulder's Itchy Scalp Care- shampoo & conditioner.  My hair's not fully dry yet so I can't quite say if it helped. I do like how creamy the shampoo was though.

I dont know if it was the after effects of using that patene (I have cowashed since then and before today) or lack of moisture, but my hair was just uncooperative.  I think I need to get more patient with my hair. Sometimes it's more thick in the roots in teh shower and I feel like I'm ripping it out my head.  Not on purpose but in an effort to get the heck out of the shower sooner! Fingers are only good for detangling if you are going to take the time to do so. Otherwise they are going to be as harmful as any other tool. 

My personal challenge this week is to wear my hair untwisted and naturally out.  With that is keeping an eye out for moisture needs, tangles and needed oils.

Day 1: Washed; Used castor oil on hair while damp; use jojoba on scalp once dry